What is your greatest regret in life? please leave a comment down below.
I guess I can start off this blog by telling the people that I was sad. I was a sad human being with plenty of issues. I would come on here and start critiquing other peoples lives. But I guess I should take a long look in the mirror first and see someone who has potential for something good in life, But as an old mentor had once said to me that I am my worst enemy. I constantly self sabotage myself and blame my self for the things I have done which I know I should have no business to get myself all worked up over. Maybe I can find my own light in the darkness and come out with a candle burning bright.
I want to talk about my life and how it could relate to philosophy. I might be gifted in that, being a philosopher. As a philosopher I guess I can say that I view the world in a different light or darkness. It is weird I feel like what I think sounds a lot better in my head then spoken into existence. Could that mean that what I think is not valid or worthy enough to be spoken into existence or could it mean that I have no one to relate to and offer a mirror of what we both could be possibly feeling.. I am so darn weird.
Weird enough that I feel like I am someone whose life has just lived skimming beneath the surfaces. In my life family friends outsides forces just told me to hush it up do not speak do not be heard. I listened and in doing so I died in my own thoughts. That being said I have delayed my own my growth. I should have a more interesting life but I do not. I have seen a lot of messed up things and to sit here with my problems, kind of hoping someone would hear me makes me feel comforted.
I wanted to to talk in this post about sadness, sadness that I do not have the power to take action and move forward in life. I always seem to be watching other people enjoy their life. Have amazing child hood friends, beautiful bodies and I am stuck trying to control my life and make it work in my favor.
Well thank you who ever is out there that will listen to me cause it took me a good thirty years to sit down on my laptop and write to the world. I am thirty but fortunately I am still learning to crawl so that I can learn how to skip and jump again. Maybe eventually run to my own dreams and goals.
Thank you...
I guess I can start off this blog by telling the people that I was sad. I was a sad human being with plenty of issues. I would come on here and start critiquing other peoples lives. But I guess I should take a long look in the mirror first and see someone who has potential for something good in life, But as an old mentor had once said to me that I am my worst enemy. I constantly self sabotage myself and blame my self for the things I have done which I know I should have no business to get myself all worked up over. Maybe I can find my own light in the darkness and come out with a candle burning bright.
I want to talk about my life and how it could relate to philosophy. I might be gifted in that, being a philosopher. As a philosopher I guess I can say that I view the world in a different light or darkness. It is weird I feel like what I think sounds a lot better in my head then spoken into existence. Could that mean that what I think is not valid or worthy enough to be spoken into existence or could it mean that I have no one to relate to and offer a mirror of what we both could be possibly feeling.. I am so darn weird.
Weird enough that I feel like I am someone whose life has just lived skimming beneath the surfaces. In my life family friends outsides forces just told me to hush it up do not speak do not be heard. I listened and in doing so I died in my own thoughts. That being said I have delayed my own my growth. I should have a more interesting life but I do not. I have seen a lot of messed up things and to sit here with my problems, kind of hoping someone would hear me makes me feel comforted.
I wanted to to talk in this post about sadness, sadness that I do not have the power to take action and move forward in life. I always seem to be watching other people enjoy their life. Have amazing child hood friends, beautiful bodies and I am stuck trying to control my life and make it work in my favor.
Well thank you who ever is out there that will listen to me cause it took me a good thirty years to sit down on my laptop and write to the world. I am thirty but fortunately I am still learning to crawl so that I can learn how to skip and jump again. Maybe eventually run to my own dreams and goals.
Thank you...
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